Thursday, January 19, 2012

Fear of the Unknown

In November I went to my general practitioner doctor for an annual checkup. I got the fun digital exam and they took my blood. The bloodwork came back all good except for a low white blood cell count. He told me that I might just have a viral infection and asked me to come back to have my white blood cell count tested again. I did so at the beginning of this month and it still was low.

He sent me to an oncologist whom I met with Monday this week. They took seven vials of blood from me. I still have a low white blood cell count but all of the other factors in my blood look good. So what could it be? He doesn't think Leukemia is it because the other readings of my blood look fine but this Monday he is going to do a bone marrow biopsy just to rule out Leukemia. Another possibility is an autoimmune disease. There are many, many of those. An autoimmune disease is one where the body attacks its own white blood cells. It also could be something as simple as a vitimin B12 deficiency- which I hope to hell that it is.

Needless to say all of this is pretty damn scary. But right now just not knowing is pretty shitty. I really really want to be around for my children because they need me and I love life. Nothing to do now but just wait.

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